Retired

At this point, it must go without saying, that I am no longer posting on this blog.

Sojourning

I did a bit of slogging through the next blog button this evening after a long break. I find myself with little patience for many of the blogs I run across. I have become heartless, I guess.

I ran into one blog that was all about hip Asian singles looking for love and sex in Los Angeles. I could not relate. It made me really glad I am not single. I also visited a blog written by an 85 year old man. I thought that was pretty cool -- the oldest blogger I have come across yet. Most of the people I know who are over 75 are not terribly computer literate. I was impressed. Then there was a blog about acne. This blogger had about 10 blogs listed on his profile. In addition to the acne blog, he publishes a blog about business and another blog about Jesus. There were the usual foreign language blogs. I also came across a blog clearly put together by some teenage girl with the customized page with trendy anime graphics and music playing. These types of blogs are indecipherable to me with the short-cut-slang-lang, chat boxes and cute paraphernalia that characterizes the bling, bling teeny bopper blog.

Will You Be My Valentine?

I am back only because Just D told me I was missed. Now that was a valentine that made me feel loved!

I have been involved in low-tech pursuits such as writing in a notebook and singing songs on guitar. I was working a trial. Then my child caught the flu. Then I caught the flu from my child. And by the time all of that was over, I seem to have lost the ambition to become a blog star.

In the continued negotiation of my mid-life crisis, I am thinking about the things I want to achieve in my life before it is over. Visiting all the blogs on Blogger is not on the list. Creating is first on the list. My experience of creativity is deeply related to my sense of spirituality. Unfortunately, between the demands of my life and a complacent contentment, my spirituality has dissipated. I am trying to rebuild my spiritual connections so I can reinvigorate my creative voice. I find that rebuilding requires me to spend time observing and thinking and freely writing, not blithely surfing blogs or posting with a premise. Sitting in front of a computer trying to be clever does not promote that connection. That is another reason why I have not posted recently.

Until I decide exactly what I am going to do with my blogs, they each remain vulnerable to extinction.

I Blog Therefore I Am

Latest survey update: It turns out many people blog merely to validate their existence.

I Am Just A Narcissist

I've concluded that I am just narcissistic. I want to be loved. I want people to appreciate, value and love me for what I do and who I am. All of us have a need to be loved and appreciated -- I don't know anyone who prefers to be unloved and unappreciated. But I am afraid that my need to be loved and appreciated may be pathological. I get anxious in certain situations if I do not feel loved and appreciated. Although, my need for love and appreciation is certainly not as acute as some people I know -- my skin is not that thin. However, my need to feel love and appreciated is often unsatisfied. Oh, to be loved!

Technical Difficulties Are Sapping My Blogging Joy

Blogger has been really unresponsive! Almost everytime I try to log on, Blogger gets stuck during the log in process. This post represents the first successful log on attempt since my last post! I had to get in the back way too -- I was unable to directly log on. The problems seem to have started once the new blogger came out of beta. I am really frustrated. Between that and my diminished motivation to keep blogging I have not posted much at all on any of my blogs. I am thinking of calling it quits anyway.

The Importance of Knowing Love

Today I attended the memorial service for a friend of mine. He committed suicide. The family and friends who survived his suicide commented on how hurt and angry they were that he killed himself. They love him dearly. Unfortunately, he had not internalized their love so that he had no sustenance during his time of despair.

To allow onself to be loved can be as much of a gift as giving love.

Survey Update

It's very interesting to review the comments left by other bloggers about why they blog. While a number of comments do support my fundamental hypothesis that people blog for love, many bloggers attest to blogging for more mundane reasons such as fighting off boredom. I certainly appreciate the blogger who blogs in order to remember her life. I find that if I do not write it down, I certainly forget, especially now that I am deeply ensconced in middle age. This on-going experiment is certainly worth continuing. To that end, I invite all readers to continue responding to the question, "Why do you blog."

Happy New Year

I'm back after a brief, unintended hiatus. Between my computer problems, blogger problems, illness and the holidays I have not blogged since before Christmas. I hope everyone had a lovely holiday season. The new year is upon us and time to move forward through the blogosphere in search of more and more love!